I feel so terrible. I mean have you ever missed somebody? Like for say a boyfriend or even a friend you considered close? I'm feeling the loneliness right now of someone I'm dieing to talk to again. I'm too scared too because i told them it would be hard for me to be their friend. Plus the feelings might get strong again. I'm just so confused, like I feel as if i had a true connection with them, or maybe it was because we liked the same thing with a passion possibly? I don't know, maybe there's that second chance in the future that might come. That would be great and I've wished for it since the incident happened. I understand the reason, I guess i just was so upset I felt enraged with anger and began hating myself more and more. Every time I try to go the the events I love so much the memories drag behind me so I get sad and don't bother doing anything. You ever write something like this and just wish they would read it right now just to see how you really feel? Cause I do right now. I wish they were online at this very moment browsing around and come across my page and read my journal. The world isn't easy like that though, therefore it won't happen. Or maybe they are scared to talk to me because of my reactions? I will never know, only because I don't have enough strength to do it. Maybe that chance will come where we meet face to face again and start up a great conversation, and all is good once again and we become good friends. you all have a good night, lols it's 12:47 PM. goodnight